All posts tagged: science

For the first time in 4 years, I believed in God again.: Hallucinations while High

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the post-God side

Having zero experience with marijuana but wanting to experience it with some good friends visiting, I accidentally inhaled more of the vape pen with concentrated cannabis oil than I should have.  Within minutes, I was collapsed on the ground and totally lost all awareness of reality as we knew it. It started with “this very moment” separating.  Like multiple transparencies from 7th grade school projectors layered on top of each other, starting to separate, so […]

Music and the existential

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the post-God side

I don’t have the words for describing this feeling.   Metaphysical, existential even.  It’s like speaking a language when the experience exists outside communication.  But I’m going to try. I’d like to believe that instilled within all of us is a detector for that which is especially captivating.   Moments and experiences that are so filled with love and beauty that it evokes unexplained emotions. Some call the experience a spiritual one.   Actually, most people probably do.  […]

Lives ARE changed by Jesus. How?

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leaving Christianity / the Christian side

Patterns in our brain our formed when our conscious thoughts take root into our subconscious.  In other words, when we do, say, or think things intentionally that we are aware of often enough that they then become part of us when we aren’t readily aware of them. How?  By spending intentional time in various activities that solidify thought patterns in our conscious mind that then create new brain pathways, and those pathways are solidified through […]

Religion costs me $75 per week + all my tears

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the godless side / the post-God side

My emotional and mental struggles were a bit too convoluted to solve on my own, so I started seeing a therapist several months ago.  I see him almost weekly because of the depths of entanglement within me.  His evidence-based approach is refreshing, as he uses science, physiology of the brain and brain chemistry, and research-based methods from years of experience and studies to give useful solutions.  There are reasons, there are answers, and there are […]

A-theists can have Eternity too

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the godless side

The shortness of life and lack of eternal life, the ending of consciousness, the ending of relationship with my dearest loved ones, the inability to get all my questions answered and all the justice served in eternity —– these are all greatly painful realities that I’ve had to accept as an a-theist. But something dawned on me the other day.  If we have the right perspective, our time can be eternal too — almost. According […]

Is life a Miracle?

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leaving Christianity / the godless side / the post-God side

Christians love to talk about the miracle of life.  In fact, I associated this feeling of specialness and self-importance with Christianity itself, assuming this religion held the monopoly on having purpose, being chosen, one-of-a-kind, rare, and entirely unique.  This correlation continued into my unbelief and contributed largely to my feeling of disconnect, unimportance, aloneness, and a deep despair due to my constant what’s-the-point thinking. Apart from being angering at the (hopefully) unintentional manipulation of religion […]

Don’t give me your anecdotes.

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the godless side / the post-God side

I posted this on Facebook because I wanted to subtly send a message to all of our ridiculous friends/family that use anecdotes to try to convince us of anything from crystal healing to the power of prayer. : In the past month, I haven’t been bitten by a snake. Or had a headache. Or been pregnant. Or seen double. And my hair has grown longer. And I’ve been mostly happy. Also, in the past month, […]

My “Science” of Spiritual Encounters

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the Christian side / the godless side / the post-God side / Uncategorized

True science has more than one case study and more than just a few observations.  But for now, this is my best attempt at observational recordings of what I have experienced that could have been explained as being “spiritual.” (1) Kansas City International House of Prayer, 2011, as an Evangelical Pentecostal Christian.  Extremely charismatic, gifts of the spirit, other-worldly.  Filled with the Holy Spirit constantly through the whole conference.  Prophecies, by and for me.  Healings, […]

Anti-Evolution or Anti-Truth?

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the godless side / the post-God side

Anger. So much anger at deception. This morning I wandered upstairs to make a decaf maple latte, and I saw some new curriculum sitting on the table for our friends who homeschool their children.   Schooling paraphernalia commonly litters the upstairs during school hours, but it rarely catches my attention like this new, thick, scholarly-looking book: Evolution: The Grand Experiment Vol. 1, “The Quest for an Answer” by Dr. Carl Werner. An atheist profoundly attracted to […]