I use this blog as an outlet for reflecting on passions, angers, enlightenments that I wouldn’t be able to share anywhere else. Because of that, the personality of Teal is isn’t a complete representation of who I am in real life.
I want to remind you (especially a very select real-life friends of mine who have access to this site, and of those, especially the ones that are Christian), that I am not a bitter, saddened, hurt individual that hates Christians and the Christian church. There are things that make me incredibly upset, things that now being removed enough from the situation that I am becoming more and more aware of — like scales falling from my eyes over time — but that doesn’t mean that these intense moments are characteristic of my life.
I have a dear Christian friend that I see only every few years. She hadn’t seen me face to face since my becoming a-theist but had read my blog until a couple weeks ago when we shared lunch together. She explained how relieved she was to find that I was okay and also confided how intimidating the posts on tealtomato can be. I realized then that this post needed to be said.
For those of you who do know me but, because of life events, don’t get a chance to talk to me much — I am okay. I’m more than okay. As much as I stand by the posts I write here, I also stand by so many other things in my life — like laughter, joy, acceptance, creativity, mindfulness, my family, my work, having fun, savoring each moment in life. Perhaps I’ll write more lower-key posts from time to time. But if I don’t, I am always, ALWAYS open to communication. You can always ask me questions and I will do the same. We can converse. Dialogue. Grow together.
But I also think it’s healthy to express how we truly feel, hence the creation of tealtomato over 2 years ago. I will continue to be brutally honest here because I need to, desperately. But I can also promise that honesty in our relationships and hope the same from you.