Is life a Miracle?

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leaving Christianity / the godless side / the post-God side


Christians love to talk about the miracle of life.  In fact, I associated this feeling of specialness and self-importance with Christianity itself, assuming this religion held the monopoly on having purpose, being chosen, one-of-a-kind, rare, and entirely unique.  This correlation continued into my unbelief and contributed largely to my feeling of disconnect, unimportance, aloneness, and a deep despair due to my constant what’s-the-point thinking.

Apart from being angering at the (hopefully) unintentional manipulation of religion to keep congregants believing (similarly discussed in my earlier post A lie that nearly ruined me) by taking ownership of the miraculous, such affiliation between religion and “being special” is just plain incorrect.

This is hopeful for those of us outside of faith.

While there may not be a sentient entity responsible for my existence, every molecule in my body is the result of an extremely rare series of extremely specific events multiplied by nearly infinite to the point that, by all intents and purposes, I shouldn’t exist.  Yet here I am.

I am.

I AM.  That name, sacred of YHWH, the tetragram for the Hebrew God, now the Judeo-Christian Omnipotent being, used to evoke awe-struck fear and reverence within me.  And now I feel such a deep connection to those two words to where I have the ownership of them, not some authority over me.

A year ago, I cried often at the thought that I wasn’t intended.  I wasn’t planned, created.  I just was.  But now, I feel freedom from having a great big being in the universe (and yet so close to me that not a single thought of mine was private) owning my soul.  I own it now.  I, an entirely rare sentient being, LIVE and exist with full control of MYSELF.  This is freedom — no longer being dependent upon another for my joy, but finding it within the solitude and sentience of myself, a scientific improbability.  Yet, I am.

The link below displays a powerful mathematical and visual representation of the miraculousness of life:

What are the odds that I exist??

The Author

I'm a closet atheist christian missionary. Paradigm shifts happen frequently for those who allow themselves to think critically about currently held beliefs and openly about new ones. I’ve developed the skill, or perhaps addiction, for change but the community around me is slow to catch up -- and would damn me if they knew where I stood.


  1. Gorf says

    I remember, ten months ago, you still believed abortions were wrong. I’m just curious whether your views have evolved? I was surprised by a friend of a friend who said that she used to say she was pro-choice, but she would never have an abortion herself; but now that she has three children, if she and her husband were to accidentally get her pregnant, she would consider aborting. I don’t know whether she believes in God. But if I didn’t believe in God and an afterlife, I think I would mourn the intentional severance of human life all the more painfully.

    Of course, whether pro-choice or pro-life, I would support stronger support systems for impoverished mothers and mothers-to-be, and provide incentives for keeping the baby and giving it up for adoption as an alternative. This is one fundamental flaw I see with the conservative approach–too little focus on human lives *after* they are born.

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  2. Violet says

    You know gorf, it’s easy to mourn the intentional severance of life when you have not had to walk in certain extremely painful shoes. I am the disabled mother of a seriously disabled child, and the reality of our lives is hell on earth. I was a devout catholic and pro-life previously, now I’m an atheist and pro-choice. Some things you just have to *live* through to understand the other side of the coin.

    Teal, have you seen this wonderful video about how we’re made of stardust?


  3. This is great, Teal! I have gone through this same evolution. Right after I left Christianity, I argued vehemently with an atheist friend about whether humans have inherent worth. I later came to realize that the concept of inherent worth only held weight if one believed that humans were God’s special, “made-in-his-image” creations—and I didn’t believe that anymore. And then I got bummed out, with the “what’s-the-point” mindset, just like you…and then I learned more about evolution, and now am back to a new kind of awe about being alive! It’s great to hear someone else express this transition.


  4. Violet, your pain and your child’s pain must be extraordinary to consider the possibility of having never existed (ie. being aborted prior to birth) to be an appealing option. There are people who live in excruciating pain every moment of their lives, or who lack the ability to control their bodies, and other ailments. My heart aches for my landlord, whose daughter was beat up and left for dead on the train tacks years ago, and who is now quadriplegic. Even if I have an accident or other illness in the future, I will still be unable to empathize with *everyone*’s disabilities and situations. Thank you for sharing with me your viewpoint on this.


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